August 25, 2014
So sometimes life happens and all I want to do is lay around and sulk and watch the kardashians and drink wine and eat my feelings. Nothing’s reeeeeally wrong, I guess, I just miss Will a LOT and I’m a little overwhelmed with school and work starting back and I just wish it was the fall of 2015 instead. I’d only have 12 hours of school (maybe less depending on summer classes) to finish and I’d be moving to Asheville within 6 months.
People tell you about how “hard” relationships are but in my opinion those people are fucking pussies. You don’t know “hard” in relationships until you live at least multiple hours away from your significant other. You have to plan your time together so that you can enjoy it and not feel like you’ve wasted it. Sometimes I want to lay around and be lazy with Will and not have to worry about anything, but when we only get to see each other for 2 days at a time, MAYBE once a month, you just don’t have those luxuries.
This summer spoiled me. I went to Asheville 3 separate times and stayed for at least a week each time. It. Was. WONDERFUL. But now that I’m back in school we can’t really do that. I could go to AVL every so often but my work schedule is crazy unpredictable, and there would be no point when Will would be working the whole time (fuck the goddamn Biltmore Estate amirite?!). So will comes to me on his “weekends” when he can, which means we get 2 whole days together (one of which I’m in class from 8:30-7:15 but I’m bitching enough already in this post, so I digress…). But this isn’t enough for me. I miss him. All the time. Every day. People don’t tell you how hard it is to be away from someone more than you’re with them…
The one thing I like to take comfort in is that he still chooses me. I mean I’m fabulous so why wouldn’t he??? (kidding… ok maybe not…) He could have almost anyone he wanted in Asheville, including a few coworkers who like(d) him and see him almost daily, but he still chooses to be with me. We could be 1000s of miles away, see each other once per year, and we would still rather be in a relationship with each other, than broken up, or with someone else. But I still wish I could see him whenever I wanted.
I DON’T KNOW. I know I complain enough about this, but some days are harder than others. I just have to hold on to the fact that it’s not forever. We won’t always have to live off of phone calls, text messages, and short visits. One day we’ll live in the same city and be able to share so much more. And those are the days I’m living for.
sorry for the sap and weepiness. but life happens.
Kia Ora xx
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